Lola
She’s lovely in the morning
although she doesn't believe me
says who's beautiful this time of day
you I must say
and she makes me pancakes
way to lumpy
and rest her elbow next to mine on the counter
recanting her time in Cedar Falls
 and her ex boyfriend Charles
about how town folks thought wedding bells and mums and gardenias
the colors would be olive and brown
great fall colors her mother said
but her eye never really fancied his way
and he knew it
and forever did she
and so she sits in my kitchen
still smelling like
 me fixing me breakfast and in crawls a millipede
I scream and she laughs
throws such a wrench in our midmorning plans

The ROC is in the building.......

.....currently listening to Bey,Jay and Yay!

Cupid didnt make it

Sorry........

forced to resign....currently a 36 year old intern...dating a man who has a live in girlfriend...yeah my life is going swell!!!!

I’m Scrooge, the Grinch or whatever character synonymous with hating all things "Happy Holidays"...I love Jesus and we are all fortunate that he was born but the gifts, presents and good cheer are all for kids, folks with kids and folks with close loving extended families, none of which I have or am.....therefore I say 'BAH HUMBUG"

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How many of us have them.......

this year has taught me that I have no friends whatsoever...not forreal friends..these bitches stab you in the front and the back....make NeNe look like Mother Teresa......

A puppy may help.....

So I read other people's blogs but never really write on my own...so here goes...ill write everyday until I’m forced to quit this job to begin my internship on my 2nd masters...yeah I’m crazy as hell but then again who isn’t....well Dread said we were dating and I guess we are because we always meet up and sit together at the club and he buys me drinks...we text weekly but we never do anything romantic or intimate...we just hang out and I guess I should be content but I am not...I want more...but alas he doesn’t...bummer...I am afraid of losing my job and asked on fb can you have faith and still be scared..the overwhelming majority said no...faith cancels out scared...but no job is scary esp. when you have no Mom and a no Dad forreal...and no husband or even boyfriend to lean on....sigh....but its greater later and a MSW is just what I need....I pray I’m right...I’m visiting my sister for Christmas...never done that before in my 35 years of living...A I’m afraid to drive in the city...B we are not close like that..but she is uber excited and I guess you should be with family during the holidays...so it will me her, her husband and my niece...I’m not excited just nervous as hell.....ugh...anxiety on board...I want a pug puppy..a boy and I will name him Oscar...a puppy may help....