A puppy may help.....

So I read other people's blogs but never really write on my own...so here goes...ill write everyday until I’m forced to quit this job to begin my internship on my 2nd masters...yeah I’m crazy as hell but then again who isn’t....well Dread said we were dating and I guess we are because we always meet up and sit together at the club and he buys me drinks...we text weekly but we never do anything romantic or intimate...we just hang out and I guess I should be content but I am not...I want more...but alas he doesn’t...bummer...I am afraid of losing my job and asked on fb can you have faith and still be scared..the overwhelming majority said no...faith cancels out scared...but no job is scary esp. when you have no Mom and a no Dad forreal...and no husband or even boyfriend to lean on....sigh....but its greater later and a MSW is just what I need....I pray I’m right...I’m visiting my sister for Christmas...never done that before in my 35 years of living...A I’m afraid to drive in the city...B we are not close like that..but she is uber excited and I guess you should be with family during the holidays...so it will me her, her husband and my niece...I’m not excited just nervous as hell.....ugh...anxiety on board...I want a pug puppy..a boy and I will name him Oscar...a puppy may help....